| Officially Diploma Cert Holder |
[May. 17th, 2012|08:34 am] |
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 Student ID no: 94533P.S: Shall post the graduation pictures by tonight or tomorrow. |
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[May. 4th, 2012|09:19 am] |
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Hello, I'm back. It's been so long since I blogged. I have got so much to say...
1st- Me and Nicholas Ang no longer together already. We are still good friends though :)
2nd- After the breakup, I met this new guy, Let's name him, J. We were just flings in the beginning and soon enough before I get to know him any better, we got together. HOWEVER, less than a month, we broke up as well. Well, I think we were too rush in the relationship and furthermore, our thinking wasn't the same thus this comes to an ending. Oh well, we are still friends as well:D
3rd- Most of my friends said that I have changed alot. Initially, I wasn't clear about what they are trying to tell me but now I think I know what they are exactly talking about. I promised I wont do anything stupid again.
4th- I have been clubbing way too much for the past few weeks and I never get sick of it ^^v
5th- I got my naval piercing recently. Like a nice!
This is the brief summaries of what had happened for the past few months. Although I am single now but I am super contented with my life now :> Anyway, T.G.I.F!!! I'm so sexcited for tomorrow KL's trip with Katherine. KL ZOUK, here I come! hehe:))
Last but not least I love my clique! <3
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| Awesome dating of 2010 |
[Sep. 3rd, 2010|02:17 am] |
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Awesome date out with nicholas ang today. Caught Step Up3 and Grown Up. Step Up3 was fantastic lah while Grown Up was just good. You guys should really catch it if you all haven watch it. hehehe. As for dinner, needless to say as it was delicious! We went to eat Ding Tai Fen, our all time favourite (Y).
I really enjoyed our date and I really treasure every minutes we have. And I'm like quite shocked yet happy when he finaly know how to take initiative to ask me out next week and we plan to catch 3 movies in 1 day and eat wanton mee at graffiti cafe :)
I really hope all the dates can help to improve our relatonship instead of msging msging msging which doesn't help to solve anything. Go out more practical than to talk on a lifeless gadget. I don't believe by msging will help to maintain a relationship. I believe in Actions Speaks Louder Than Words.
Alrighty! It's pretty late now. I should catch some sleep to stop growing any dark eye rings. Goodnight:) Love ya <3 Muaccks:*)
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[Sep. 2nd, 2010|01:49 am] |
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Hi everyone, Goodnight! Is past midnight and I guess guess half of the population in Singapore is snoring, drooling or even wet dreaming. But laoniang me, still stay awake and do some blogging before I snore, drool or even wet dreaming about nicholas ang. LOL! Okay, laoniang just joking only worxzxzx. Okay, laoniang in a happy mood now. Know why? Because me finally can go gaigai with nicholas ang already. Its been so long we have our private dates lah. I'm pretty not so excited about it. Maybe little bit of excitement but not that exciting enough to make me feel super excited about it. Ahla. I don't even know what am I talking about. Okay, i am happy to go gaigai tomorrow:)
Our plan is.. Movie, dinner and movie again. We will catch two awesome movies which are Step Up3 and Grown Up. YAY! All the movies I wanna catch one leh. But there are two movies I still wanna watch are Girls which is R21 and Vampire Sucks. As for R21 show, I will do something about it so I can watch with Joyce Jiejie:) Pretty excited to watch the show because got alot of HOT BABES. Eh, warning first: I'm not horny or what hor. I just love to see pretty girls:D
Anywayanyway, I wish all my friends to be happy all day long. I wish Joyce Jiejie can forget about the meiliangxin de asshole and be her true self again. I wish Nicholas Lee can be happy, don't stress about exam or something else and get well soon. I wish the whole clique- Keith, Matthew, Gheehoe, Melvin, Jeremy, Gary, Nicholas' and me to pass our exams with shooting colour. ( eh, dont try to correct me hor. I know is flying colour but I am trying to be creative kay.) I also wish all my polymates except the one I hate to pass their exam with shooting colour too:D
Someone told me he will change and do it in action. I really hope he can be mature enough to do what he had promised me. And I really hope we can stop quarreling because we have been quarreling for almost everyday which is BAD! I really do wish to believe him but it takes time lah. Sorry for my unreasonable attitude. I have no choice. Is you turn me into a bitch. I'm sorry. I will change to a better girlfriend. PROMISED!
Okay lah. Laoniang tired already. Me want to orr orr liao. Will come back soon to post about my daily life:D
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| Another part of my life is gone |
[Aug. 16th, 2010|11:53 pm] |
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Sometime when things went wrong, you just need time of your own and think what you want in your life. After talking to xxx, I finally know what I want and know what to do. I shouldn't be soft-hearted anymore. I cannot take those lies from you and I don't wish to continue be your victim. The msg you wanted to send to other people, you accidentally send to me. I saw, my heart felt tense up. I know I am jealous when my instinct told me that you are msging someone else, not me. Although you keep denying, I still believe my own instinct, not you. Flirt with girls, good in lying and do not have me as priority. Now I have know all the truth, I have to say goodbye to our relationship. Note this: you are the one who ruin our relationship, not me.
I will MIA from people and i promise I will stay strong. Don't worry about me okay? Especially Samuel Lim Min Quan. I will call you out once I am willing to face the world again. :)
Goodbye to Attached-hood. Hello to Single-hood.
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| Butter+Kaya = Perfect Combination |
[Jul. 23rd, 2010|03:55 pm] |
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Wednesday was a blast. Went to Butterfac with the usual group of Poly friends. Bella, Samuel, Ken, Yang Hui, Jason, Vincent and Menghao. Opened martel so that it can waive entrance fee for the guys, while me and Bella keep taking free drinks. HAHAHA! I drank like super alot, then I was like already damn high around 12 plus. I went to the podium and dance like crazy bitch. This is when I cannot remember what I did after that. My friend told me that there is one guy trying to dance with me and guess what did I do? I actually went to punch the guy 2 times. Funny shit lah. I didnt remember that I hit anyone sia. (Y). This prove that even I drunk or what, no guys can get near me. Hahaha! What's worse, I don't want to go home! In the end, they have to coax me like a baby and bring me home. LMAO!!! But thanks to my lovely friends for taking care of me. Love you guys. xoxo
Ohmigod. I just realised that I got so many movies haven't watch- Eclipse, Inception and Despicable me. Someone has projects and no time to accompany me to watch. Pretty pretty sad:( I will wait for next week then I think he will have time to accompany me :)
I guess things goes pretty well for me and him. Trying my best to forget about the incident. Although, now my heart is not pain when I wake up but then I still got some phobia. I really love him but shit lah, I just cannot forget the incident man. These few days been msging him coldly, keep asking the same questions and sometimes scold him on msg. I feel damn bad but then is all his fault lah. Make me turn this way -_-". I just feel that this r/s is like a stranger to me. I need time to get back the feeling whereby I feel being loved by him and how he care for me last time. N.A.L.J, I believe you can do it. Just prove it to me and I will trust you again. I know you can do it. Jiayoujiayoujiayou! I LOVE YOU BABY!!!:) Fuck. I am having cramp now and feeling so uncomfortable. Fuck menses kay. _l_
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| It's so fluffy. I'm gonna die |
[Jul. 17th, 2010|08:06 pm] |
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I'm having break now. I am stylo milo. Bring Joyce small and cute lappy to work so that it can kills my boreness. (Y)
I'm having so many thoughts in mind. Thinking why the one (friend) whom I trust so much in the clique can lie to me:( I'm so sad, very.:(:(:( We always chat in MSN and talk alot of nonsense and having fun chatting with each other but I never expect him to lie to me and even hang my phone? While I was desperately looking for Nicholas Ang on thursday night, I called him because I knew that they were together but he msged me saying that he is bathing thats why never pick up. At that point of time, I knew that he lied to me and I felt super sad. All long, I trust him so much, resting assure that if my boyfriend go out with them at night like clubbing, I will feel safe but end up, they lost the trust which I have given to them. It was very disappointing. I wish I can trust back this friend of mine but I don't know how and whether should I. I am scared of being hurt by them.One is my long time friend, another one is boyfriend. I really don't know what to do:(
As for my r/s, I admit that I am having this thought of giving up on this going to 3 years r/s. But I am afraid that if we are still together, he will hurt me again. Every morning when I wake up, my heart feels pain. Then I will start to think and think. I told him that if he wants to continue being with me, he have to give up on clubbing and promised me several things like: change his bad habit like lying, stop hiding things from me, stop ignoring me if I want to find him, reply me like usual and stop replying me slow as I HATE PEOPLE REPLYING ME SO SLOW WHEN I AM FRIGGING WAITING FOR THEIR MSGES and lastly make more effort in me. You guys might think that I am controlling him too much but actually, I'M NOT! Last time I give him total freedom but I think he take it for granted and base on the few days incident, I decided to control him abit. Actually, I also dun like to control him but I have no choice:( I have lost the trust in him and I have to gain back my trust by doing this. He agreed but I think he is unhappy also. I don't want both of us to feel unhappy thus I suggest break because this is the only way he can gain back his freedom and I might feel more comfortable because he will not hurt me again with his lies. Even if after the break, we still can be bestfriends and keep in contact.:) But he don't wish to. I will see how things goes ba.
Everyone ask me to follow my heart but my heart lost the direction of where to go. I'm dead.
Okay, got to start work niao. Ciaos;)
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| My heart is like a broken mirror |
[Jul. 16th, 2010|11:39 am] |
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Hi guys... Its been long since I last post. Long until I forget my username and password. This shows how bad it is ah. I have so many things to say, Recently, many people faced r/s problem and I myself facing it too. Few weeks back, I found out that he lied to me, sms-ing girl and even went out with the fuckers without telling me. I cried for hours and decided to forgive him but I will never FORGET about the incident. He promised that he will change for the better but I know its only last for awhile. Few days back, we quarrelled again and last night I found out that he went out again with those fuckers and did not tell me. (Y). I called him but he hang up my call. This is something which I will never forgive and forget. I called may and she talked to them. She say he very anxious over me but guess what? He only say but no action! CB!!! Only talk, no action, what's the use? If I am a guy, knowing that a girl cry for you at nowhere, I will definitely abandon all the fuckers and FUN just to find the girl back. But he? Did nothing, NOTHING!!! To think I cried for one hour and finally I came into senses which is 'what for cry for a jerk who don't care for you at all? Single and Attached are about the same thus I think that being single isn't a bad thing afterall.' What I want is very simple.
-A boyfriend who care for me.
-Call me to check if I am alright
-Pick me up from school or work
-Give me small surprises
-Keep the promise
-Worry for me
-Look for me when we quarrel
-Inform me wherever he go
-No lying to me
But too bad, none of these criteria he did to me. So the only solution is break and end this relationship instead to hanging on for FCUK! (Y)
LAONIANG SHALL MOVE ON~~~ :)
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[May. 18th, 2010|01:29 pm] |
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Hey people, I'm back. Life been pretty sucky but fun at the same time with Boyfriend and Friends around. Dreading of work because politics and people gossip here and there. Well I guess they are still premature kids:) How old already? Some even older than me by nearly one generation yet still do this kind of thing -_-" ( FYI: Names not mentioned so do make any assumption ) HAHAHAH! Oh yes, one FF is gone. I sitll have to face one more -_- Pearleen, bear with this shit and I believe you will go through this before finally proceeding to your plan. Guess this must be piece of puzzle in life whereby you have to go through this stage and survive from it. Maybe I experience much more early than most of the teens ;)
I've made some plans for my future already:D
Before proceeding to my plan ( confidential ), I want to do something first;
- Get my desired camera on June
- Pay all my school fee for this year
- Increase my saving amount to _____
Hope I can achieve as soon as possibe :)
Kaygtg. Going to do my work naooo!
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